I didn’t realize witches could be white.
Hahaha that’s so dumb! Klaus is dead! Jesus freaking hayley
“Someday you’ll meet someone new and you’ll fall madly in love. And you’ll have moved on without even realizing it.”
It wouldn’t surprise me if Delena and Steroline wind up being end game.
it would make me the happiest person alive if delena and steroline were end game.
07. “She left you. She sucks.” 115 (Top Ten Damon/Elena moments)
This was the moment I knew for sure that Damon cared about Elena. I mean he really cared about her. And the best part about it? He didn’t even have any idea how much.
The even better part? She did.
It’s such a long journey, isn’t it, the Damon and Elena thing? It takes her to the very end of season two to know that he loves her - to believe in it - to respect it - to love his love for her, even if she can’t let herself love him just yet.
(At least not out loud.)
We look at it as a revelation when Damon asks Elena in season 3 if she trusts him and she answers with easy immediacy that she does. And it is - or it seems to be. But at the same time, she trusted him even as far back as when she took her necklace off in front of him and laid it down and made it real between them. And she trusts him here, perhaps even more recklessly. Because she’s not putting him in a position where he can rob her of things. She’s outright giving them to him.
It’s hard not to focus on all the ways this scene is sexy and hilarious. Elena enters the room and calls out for Stefan. Damon replies “Better. Me,” and the lion’s share of fandom concurs. Elena does too, but of course she can’t admit it to herself - to any part of herself - she couldn’t even admit it to her toe-nail clippings.
And you know what, I think that’s why she starts buttoning his shirt up for him when ten out ten girls who were dating his brother would not. It’s because she wants to, and she wants to pretend that she doesn’t want to, so she has to go ahead and do it. It’s the double bluff, you know? This means so little to me. I feel nothing from it. Therefore I’d better go ahead and do it and bask in the way nothing in my mind, heart or body changes.
(Except that it does.)
But at the same time she is so willing to be vulnerable with him on an emotional level, and that part is completely artless. I mean, what could be more intimate than this? And I’m not talking about her hands and his shirt. What could you talk about that is more secret and delicate and special than finding your birth mother, particularly when both your parents died in a terrible accident you feel responsible for? Pretty much nothing unless you’re into child porn, and then you just shouldn’t be talking to anybody unless they’re in jail with you.
Elena smiles to herself. And then she shares the cause of that smile with Damon. She gives her happiness to him. But it’s not something she can give to him in the sense of making it his. It’s not something she can share like you break a twinkie in half. It’s completely hers and for Damon to have any interest in it it would have to be by virtue of his interest in Elena herself.
This means she already believes he cares about her. And not just in the way where he won’t kill her if he can help it. Not just in the way where maybe he wishes she was unbuttoning his shirt instead of buttoning it up either. In the way where her thoughts and feelings - her life and the way she lives it - matter to him. I’m not talking about the fact that Damon has those feelings for her, by the way. I’m talking about the fact that Elena expects him to. Already. That is huge.
And then Damon does that thing where he’s direct and to the point and sometimes that makes him kind of an insensitive jerk and Elena looks up at him like he just told her it’s funny when you kick baby animals in the stomach real hard.
She’s totally shocked and she’s totally hurt. ‘What’s this? The mean, murderous bad brother vampire I met a couple of months ago doesn’t care about my hopes, dreams and aspirations? How can this be?’ Elena’s not self-involved, you guys. She just trusts Damon that much and that instinctively.
So for a second she’s reeling.
“Ugh, who cares.”
She can believe he’d eat the townsfolk but she can’t believe he would say something like that to her, and so she looks up unguardedly into his eyes, she gets closer. There is no retreat, no embarrassment. Because Elena is searching for the truth which can’t be that Damon is actually bored by her (because they are falling in love and that is never boring even if you don’t quite know it’s happening yet).
And that’s when he looks into her eyes just as unguardedly and says the most romantic thing ever.
“She left you. She sucks.”
Elena’s suspicions are confirmed and her feelings are instantly unhurt. He is not bored by her. He is simply unable to see the value in a person who would abandon her. He simply thinks she is more important than her DNA. He doesn’t care about Elena’s birth mother because he cares so deeply about Elena.
And this is the thing. This is what Damon thinks love is: never leaving, never letting go. And it’s what Elena thinks love is too. It’s why she goes back to Stefan after Wickery Bridge. It’s why she chooses him even when her heart is screaming at her that Damon is what she wants. She is loyal to a fault - honestly, to the point where sometimes it is actually ugly and sad and self-abnegating. She won’t love a ghost forever, but she will love whatever’s there. She will love whatever still needs her to love it no matter how little it loves her, because when it’s real you can’t walk away - ever.
It’s interesting to parallel Elena’s experience with Stefan to Damon’s with Katherine. Katherine, who, he realized just an episode ago, simply left him.
Katherine abused Damon, just as Stefan abused Elena. A part of him knew, deep down, that she did not love him the way he loved her. But he held onto her for 145 years. He made it his too-many-lives’ mission to bring her back to him. Why? Because he thought whether she loved him or not she might still want him and if she wanted him he couldn’t turn his back on her.
“I’d sooner die.”
And he did. Damon died. Hurrying to Katherine. Elena died. Hurrying to Stefan.
The two of them have hurt themselves so much with love. And the way they stopped doing that is by loving each other. Damon was able to walk away from Katherine because he fell for Elena on the sly. Elena finally split up with Stefan because “you”.
Damon would never be cheesy enough to put it this way, but essentially what he is saying to Elena in this scene is: If you were mine, I would never leave you. Not for any reason in the world. Because you are that precious.
For a girl who, at this point at least, believes she was simply abandoned by both her birth parents, for a girl who must feel in the dark, irrational parts of herself that her adoptive parents didn’t want her either - that they left her when they died - that they died because she wasn’t good enough - that if they had picked up another little girl at the agency everything would have been okay…
For a girl with that kind of baggage, what Damon says goes straight to the heart. She feels it with shocking intensity: the love in him, the tenderness, the strength, the unconditional foreverness of the things he could, would, might, maybe feel for her.
I will always choose you. I will never leave you again.
It’s coming and she knows it is. And she wants it so badly she does that thing where she looks at his lips when she’s way too close to him for those kinds of shenanigans, and honestly, if Damon had been quite as drunk as he was pretending to be she might have found herself kissed right then and there.
Stefan is going to walk in any second and escort Elena to a fundraiser. But right before he does Elena will know briefly, achingly, deliciously, that she wants to be kissed - and not by him.